Wonderful post, Kathleen. It's sad to see relationships that were once so dear relegated to small talk status. I've had to reign in my Sagittarius sun over the past four years. One of its shadow aspects is righteousness. I no longer feel it's my place or my job to change anyone's mind about anything. I also hate confrontation, so... And who says I'm right, anyway? There is definitely a timeline split happening and our souls are choosing which one to take.
I believe we're headed towards the world you write about, but I know I won't see it in my lifetime. Maybe I'll come back in another lifetime to witness it. IDK. The astrologers certainly think that's where we're headed. 2024 is already proving their predictions of disclosure and systems breaking down. And, while I was completely true to myself and beholden to the government or anyone else during the PLandemic, I don't think that it (the government) is going to go "poof" and miraculously disappear just by us not voting (yes, I believe it's rigged), paying taxes, etc. Maybe we could use some ethical people on the inside to help dismantle it. I don't know. Sagittarians are also the eternal optimists. :) There are some people who have the leader (not ruler) archetype but don't think they're God, or "a god." I certainly don't have that archetype and I don't have the answers, that's for sure. This has been quite a ramble, and for that I apologize, Kathleen! XO
Gorgeous, Kathleen! We’re all in the cosmic goo phase where our identities are dissolving. Feels icky, but it’s necessary for transformation. Thanks for reminding us of the ultimate beauty of we aspire to on this adventure of becoming.
Perhaps it's just the outlandish way that I think, or this deep-seated rebellion that lives within me, but I've never understood how some people can live in the comfort of their illusions (that were given to them) without question, and actually feel safe there. Like birds in cages with Stockholm Syndrome. The truth of reality is getting louder and louder, and even the most stubborn of souls cannot deny that those really big, uncomfortable questions need to be faced and answered. Every single one of us innately know the truth of all, many are just completely disconnected. No judgement here at all, but the time is now. It's go time! (Says the restless, eager Aries clapping her hands... in an encouraging and loving way, of course hehehe). Thank you for this beautiful post Kathleen! I really enjoy the way you express yourself. This was a pleasure to read. You said a lot about what I've been feeling for my whole life really in the most nonjudgmental way. Sending good vibes your way <3
Just yesterday, found an old old postcard I had left above the front door frame, a decade ago, of a catepiller, pupae and butterfly. I dusted it off and moved it to the mantle. Funny, if you don't understand the whole process, you cannot believe they are all the same creature. One thing to note, in the phase of the pupae, is that the entire body of the catepillar essentially turns to liquid and is entirely reformed to be the butterfly. It is an astonishing process indeed.
Hi Kathleen, Another thought-provoking piece as usual. You sure do a good job of asking the important but difficult questions. My husband and I had a conversation about this just yesterday. He was talking about the election. I was trying to listen. The he said, "OK, well, I can tell you're not interested in this". I responded, "No, not really, but I'll try to hear you. It's just that I am so done with this topic of elections."
I mean who cares, really? Is it going to change anything? Not in the least. We fool ourselves by thinking there could actually be some reason for hope while the same structure is still in place. One of my favorite questions has been, "What if they had an election and nobody came?" Now, that might actually get my attention. LOL
The Monarch is my totem. The week of my divorce, after 30 months of legal negotiation, my ex- thought he had a chance to screw me over and changed 5.5 of the 7 points we'd agreed on. But unbeknownst to him, he left a loophole. At first I was going to tell him and then decided he'd put it in his back pocket and we'd be back to square one. He had a week before we signed to notice.
I had over 50 monarch chrysalis in my back yard, ready to pop. So pretty, that cerulean blue with the gold-dotted line! I was too agitated to do anything so I spent hours abiding with them in the yard, watching some go transparent, emerge with their wet wings, so vibrant!
On the day we signed, I was sweating bullets. But he was too elated by believing he'd gotten what he wanted. One of my conditions was that we meet with the mediator a month later. By then he realized and I let him sweat. Then I said, "this gives me this ability but that's not what I want. It's not what I ever wanted. I want what's fair." He answered, "Write it anyway you want. I'm your bitch."
He was right about that. It gave me a chance to write the most family-friendly divorce agreement possible. And as we near the end of it, it's meant our daughters never lost financially from what they would have had if we'd stayed together.
Yep the struggle of getting out of the cocoon is what squeezes the body to create the conditions for the butterfly to be able to fly.
Pressure shapes.
Btw, we were never free. Look back and see the constant authoritarianism. Native Americans, slaves, women weren't given rights. What the f is that? Free dumb not freedom!
The Constitution was so lacking that they had to AMEND it with the bill of rights, because people were protesting the lack of rights in the Constitution!
One line that stuck out to me was this: “What fills the void left when a big piece falls away? We do.”
Your’e absolutely correct. BUT, how many of us know ourselves well enough, and have safeguarded our FREEDOM enough, to be sure it is WE who are running the internal show?
Your friend MAY be cautious to replace the energetic space once filled by an unquestioning faith or belief, in an effort to not fall into another trap. Like my wife kicking dope only to start taking benzos and other psyche meds “voluntarily’ She didn’t fill the space left by heroin with pharma on her own. She had acquiesced her medical freedom to someone she trusted.
There is a reason cults prey on folks who are in your friend’s exact position.
Maybe she learned the lesson and is waiting to fill that space with “herself, when she finds herself.”
So beautiful, Kathleen, thank you. I love the way you so gently tried to tease your friend out of her attachment to the religion that imprisons her. Ass you rightly say, it's so important to understand we only lead someone to the water's edge in the hope that they might see the joy that lies beyond. Your analogy of the butterfly is so perfect and I love what you say: 'We're in the midsts of a collective metamorphosis ... we're too damn big and beautiful for the confinements of a slave-system ... so many butterflies waiting to break free.' Your post is as poetic as it is insightful, it's time for us all to 'lean in.'
"...however disillusioning it is, and uncomfortable, it’s better to see things as they are, or at least closer to how they are, right?”
I wish I had your capacity to put thoughts to words so eloquently. I feel for those who are "over covid" because I am too! However, it's about much more and I simply cannot sit back and claim exhaustion. Perhaps my childhood of never quite fitting set me up for this moment. As well as the toxic romantic relationship I dug into and realized I had been set up for this dynamic since birth. We are all fed a script very early on. When you realize you didn't get the note that the script can be changed to support YOU instead of everyone else, the world collapses. This happened for me 8yrs ago. It set in motion the opening of my eyes to see the reality we all live in but most can't see or see and can't accept. It tears your heart out over and over and over. I have always known, felt and cherished the part of me that was different from so many. But it became easier to deny that part and fit in. I simply cannot do that anymore. Thank you for expressing so many things I wish I could. Blessings 💜
About "the church": I am struggling with this one. As a child in the '50s and early '60s, that Sunday ritual was a formative piece of my early life in a positive way inwardly, and outwardly in terms of family and community (of the Liberal Protestant variety). And while it wasn't a part of my adult life, I was drawn to re-find that in 2017, in search of some "based" or at least unwoke souls to share song and space wtih. Then "covid" happened and I once again rejected what disappointingly proved itself to be a cowardly, compliant institution.
Yet now I've found another that feels a good enough fit (small 'L' lutheran, although if there was an Orthodox church nearby, I'd go). I can't shake the idea that there's still an important role to be played by a 2,000 year tradition which still stands for the ethics of love, morality, charity and compassion. I can't shake the realization that the fall of our civilization has happened parallel with the emptying of our churches. I feel it also as, looking back upon the not insignificant sufferings of my life, I know now that having felt as a god unto myself led me down paths the social engineers designed for me instead.
I know this comment contradicts your own convictions, Kathleen, which I understand and respect. I'm merely offering my own perspective, for what it's worth.
Wonderful post, Kathleen. It's sad to see relationships that were once so dear relegated to small talk status. I've had to reign in my Sagittarius sun over the past four years. One of its shadow aspects is righteousness. I no longer feel it's my place or my job to change anyone's mind about anything. I also hate confrontation, so... And who says I'm right, anyway? There is definitely a timeline split happening and our souls are choosing which one to take.
I believe we're headed towards the world you write about, but I know I won't see it in my lifetime. Maybe I'll come back in another lifetime to witness it. IDK. The astrologers certainly think that's where we're headed. 2024 is already proving their predictions of disclosure and systems breaking down. And, while I was completely true to myself and beholden to the government or anyone else during the PLandemic, I don't think that it (the government) is going to go "poof" and miraculously disappear just by us not voting (yes, I believe it's rigged), paying taxes, etc. Maybe we could use some ethical people on the inside to help dismantle it. I don't know. Sagittarians are also the eternal optimists. :) There are some people who have the leader (not ruler) archetype but don't think they're God, or "a god." I certainly don't have that archetype and I don't have the answers, that's for sure. This has been quite a ramble, and for that I apologize, Kathleen! XO
Gorgeous, Kathleen! We’re all in the cosmic goo phase where our identities are dissolving. Feels icky, but it’s necessary for transformation. Thanks for reminding us of the ultimate beauty of we aspire to on this adventure of becoming.
Perhaps it's just the outlandish way that I think, or this deep-seated rebellion that lives within me, but I've never understood how some people can live in the comfort of their illusions (that were given to them) without question, and actually feel safe there. Like birds in cages with Stockholm Syndrome. The truth of reality is getting louder and louder, and even the most stubborn of souls cannot deny that those really big, uncomfortable questions need to be faced and answered. Every single one of us innately know the truth of all, many are just completely disconnected. No judgement here at all, but the time is now. It's go time! (Says the restless, eager Aries clapping her hands... in an encouraging and loving way, of course hehehe). Thank you for this beautiful post Kathleen! I really enjoy the way you express yourself. This was a pleasure to read. You said a lot about what I've been feeling for my whole life really in the most nonjudgmental way. Sending good vibes your way <3
Just yesterday, found an old old postcard I had left above the front door frame, a decade ago, of a catepiller, pupae and butterfly. I dusted it off and moved it to the mantle. Funny, if you don't understand the whole process, you cannot believe they are all the same creature. One thing to note, in the phase of the pupae, is that the entire body of the catepillar essentially turns to liquid and is entirely reformed to be the butterfly. It is an astonishing process indeed.
Hi Kathleen, Another thought-provoking piece as usual. You sure do a good job of asking the important but difficult questions. My husband and I had a conversation about this just yesterday. He was talking about the election. I was trying to listen. The he said, "OK, well, I can tell you're not interested in this". I responded, "No, not really, but I'll try to hear you. It's just that I am so done with this topic of elections."
I mean who cares, really? Is it going to change anything? Not in the least. We fool ourselves by thinking there could actually be some reason for hope while the same structure is still in place. One of my favorite questions has been, "What if they had an election and nobody came?" Now, that might actually get my attention. LOL
So many of us busting out of our long-held identities.
As you said so well. what fills those gaps? We do. More of us.
And this is part of the Shift that is occurring. The "Remembrance" of ourselves as Essence.
There's no stopping this train.
I’m all about squeezing through the next phase. It’s time. This caterpillar wants to learn how to fly. 🦋
The Monarch is my totem. The week of my divorce, after 30 months of legal negotiation, my ex- thought he had a chance to screw me over and changed 5.5 of the 7 points we'd agreed on. But unbeknownst to him, he left a loophole. At first I was going to tell him and then decided he'd put it in his back pocket and we'd be back to square one. He had a week before we signed to notice.
I had over 50 monarch chrysalis in my back yard, ready to pop. So pretty, that cerulean blue with the gold-dotted line! I was too agitated to do anything so I spent hours abiding with them in the yard, watching some go transparent, emerge with their wet wings, so vibrant!
On the day we signed, I was sweating bullets. But he was too elated by believing he'd gotten what he wanted. One of my conditions was that we meet with the mediator a month later. By then he realized and I let him sweat. Then I said, "this gives me this ability but that's not what I want. It's not what I ever wanted. I want what's fair." He answered, "Write it anyway you want. I'm your bitch."
He was right about that. It gave me a chance to write the most family-friendly divorce agreement possible. And as we near the end of it, it's meant our daughters never lost financially from what they would have had if we'd stayed together.
I thank the Monarchs every time I see one.
Yep the struggle of getting out of the cocoon is what squeezes the body to create the conditions for the butterfly to be able to fly.
Pressure shapes.
Btw, we were never free. Look back and see the constant authoritarianism. Native Americans, slaves, women weren't given rights. What the f is that? Free dumb not freedom!
The Constitution was so lacking that they had to AMEND it with the bill of rights, because people were protesting the lack of rights in the Constitution!
https://www.michaeltsarion.com/constitution-con.html
"We are under a Constitution, but the Constitution is what the judges say it is." - Judge Charles Evans Hughes
“Justice will not be served until those who are unaffected are as outraged as those who are.” ― Benjamin Franklin
Once again, so many places to start.
One line that stuck out to me was this: “What fills the void left when a big piece falls away? We do.”
Your’e absolutely correct. BUT, how many of us know ourselves well enough, and have safeguarded our FREEDOM enough, to be sure it is WE who are running the internal show?
Your friend MAY be cautious to replace the energetic space once filled by an unquestioning faith or belief, in an effort to not fall into another trap. Like my wife kicking dope only to start taking benzos and other psyche meds “voluntarily’ She didn’t fill the space left by heroin with pharma on her own. She had acquiesced her medical freedom to someone she trusted.
There is a reason cults prey on folks who are in your friend’s exact position.
Maybe she learned the lesson and is waiting to fill that space with “herself, when she finds herself.”
❤️👻
So beautiful, Kathleen, thank you. I love the way you so gently tried to tease your friend out of her attachment to the religion that imprisons her. Ass you rightly say, it's so important to understand we only lead someone to the water's edge in the hope that they might see the joy that lies beyond. Your analogy of the butterfly is so perfect and I love what you say: 'We're in the midsts of a collective metamorphosis ... we're too damn big and beautiful for the confinements of a slave-system ... so many butterflies waiting to break free.' Your post is as poetic as it is insightful, it's time for us all to 'lean in.'
"...however disillusioning it is, and uncomfortable, it’s better to see things as they are, or at least closer to how they are, right?”
I wish I had your capacity to put thoughts to words so eloquently. I feel for those who are "over covid" because I am too! However, it's about much more and I simply cannot sit back and claim exhaustion. Perhaps my childhood of never quite fitting set me up for this moment. As well as the toxic romantic relationship I dug into and realized I had been set up for this dynamic since birth. We are all fed a script very early on. When you realize you didn't get the note that the script can be changed to support YOU instead of everyone else, the world collapses. This happened for me 8yrs ago. It set in motion the opening of my eyes to see the reality we all live in but most can't see or see and can't accept. It tears your heart out over and over and over. I have always known, felt and cherished the part of me that was different from so many. But it became easier to deny that part and fit in. I simply cannot do that anymore. Thank you for expressing so many things I wish I could. Blessings 💜
So Beautiful Kathleen. Thank you
Thank you,thank you, Kathleen. So well said and exactly what I’m feeling and seeing. ❤️❤️❤️
About "the church": I am struggling with this one. As a child in the '50s and early '60s, that Sunday ritual was a formative piece of my early life in a positive way inwardly, and outwardly in terms of family and community (of the Liberal Protestant variety). And while it wasn't a part of my adult life, I was drawn to re-find that in 2017, in search of some "based" or at least unwoke souls to share song and space wtih. Then "covid" happened and I once again rejected what disappointingly proved itself to be a cowardly, compliant institution.
Yet now I've found another that feels a good enough fit (small 'L' lutheran, although if there was an Orthodox church nearby, I'd go). I can't shake the idea that there's still an important role to be played by a 2,000 year tradition which still stands for the ethics of love, morality, charity and compassion. I can't shake the realization that the fall of our civilization has happened parallel with the emptying of our churches. I feel it also as, looking back upon the not insignificant sufferings of my life, I know now that having felt as a god unto myself led me down paths the social engineers designed for me instead.
I know this comment contradicts your own convictions, Kathleen, which I understand and respect. I'm merely offering my own perspective, for what it's worth.