I Don't Know

& Letting Ourselves In On It

I’m combining two essays in my drafts folder: I Don’t Know and Letting Ourselves in On It. On the surface they seem at opposite ends - the first acknowledges our ignorance, the second, that we know more than we consciously allow - but they’re actually linked.

Before I get to that a quick - related - aside.

Writing lately has required navigating what feels to be a new inner space.

It’s something like realizing the rules changed but you weren’t given the new ones. I reach back to just-yesterday subjects and references but they don’t work - it’s as if some invisible settings changed. Something new is coming but not yet landed, so it’s a liminal, in-between place tinged with both expectancy and loss.

100% fine, just awkward.

Some things are completely the same - I still want to put butter on nearly everything I eat, for instance. It’s more a sense that the energetic background life is happening in, changed.

A whole layer of density is gone and in the new space folks are changing their behaviors and looking for new answers. (I think this may have to do with the increase we’ve seen in people not drinking alcohol - and maybe something to do with the amount of folk finding Jesus lately.)

Hard to know. Still if the bandwidths of frequencies we live in changes, that changes us. We would expect to see big shifts.

It’s natural yet extraordinary at once - I sense what we used to do over lifetimes, has sped up so much that now it’s like having multiple lifetimes in one. (So maybe I’ve been in a bardo-lite space? ) I’m guessing many can relate.

Really, I just want to post pretty pictures. Here’s one.

The world is uncomfortable in its undoing, so naturally we are too.

Which is not to say I don’t have perfectly wonderful moments of feeling super-grateful and light and expansive. I do. And I have perfectly un-wonderful moments of feeling a fiery impatience with everything and everyone that only silence (preferably in Nature) can douse. (And honestly only trees would put up with me when I’m like that.)

Here’s the related bit. The uncomfortable in-between I’m describing is reflected in the world - partially at least - by allowing in the realization of all the things we don’t know.

We don’t know what’s going on. All that digging and dot-connecting helped us shred the false, and see through a lot, but it’s not like we now know what’s what and who’s who.

We don’t know.

We know enough to know officialdom in its multiple forms was long ago hijacked and can not be trusted. Even as we assume many good people who work in those places do so with good intent. (Or at least without malicious intent.)

There are many theories as to the head of this snake or center of this web. I remember watching David Icke’s Escape the Matrix series on Gaia. Now you can see it on Prime. That’s a change.

I’m of the current opinion everything we can name - the Black Nobility, the Families, the Secret Societies, the Royals, the Banksters, the Eugenic-technocrats - all are manifestations/symptoms of a hidden presence that infiltrated long ago.

I don’t claim any special insight though agree broadly with the ‘mind-virus’ understanding Paul Levy has spent decades researching and writing about. Our main difference is where he sees this as having started as a human phenomenon gone off the rails, I think the source is non-human.

(In terms of how it’s manifested and spread that distinction probably doesn’t matter.)

This stack is not about that subject per-se though the inclusion of a hidden psycho-spiritual sickness that took over the power centers is important to include. At the very least it’s something to maintain an I don’t know posture on. (As my favorite emojie captures: 🤷‍♀️)

If it’s happened and we know about it then that’s the really good news. Because we are in good hands here; life itself can be trusted. Universal forces are moving our world towards freedom and this is happening whether or not we agree on the details.

It’s why all the hidden stuff is coming up to be revealed. The frequencies on the planet literally can’t support that version of our world anymore.

As we reject the givens - those underlying assumptions about this world that have proven false - we will probably try to latch on to a new set of assumptions. The in-between - the I don’t know - is uncomfortable and we like to feel we have a handle on things.

Another pretty pic, cause why not?

But we’ll notice too, that not knowing and even letting a construct of the whole world fall into the space of question - while uncomfortable - we’re still okay. Who we are in essence doesn’t actually require all those explanations.

In the space uncertainty opens up, more of who we really are, floods in. It can, it has more room.

In our deepest recesses, we all know this world is not the way it should be or could be. We know the dark agendas attempting to control humanity have to go. We see it’s march towards a dystopian control grid, and we’re not having it.

A misidentification of identity is at the heart of Wetiko, so breaking free amounts to re-identifying who we really are. And if we give that process some room, it just happens.

Cate Montana has done some excellent stacks on this.

I appreciate Cate personalizing the journey - unique for each of us - because while we’ve seen this influence in our deeply corrupted world, what’s less obvious is the influence it’s had on us. (It’s easier to see blindspots in someone else.) No biggie - those versions are falling away too. What’s real stays.

When we move past the denial and the rationalizations and the clinging on to a world no longer relevant, the corresponding irrelevant identities (they were never really you) that went with that world, go too.

The lighter we can hold those identities the easier it is.

I don’t know is the key that opens the door to letting ourselves in (on it).

We drop a version of ourselves and the world and open to something freer.

We live in a mysterious universe. And while that might sound abstract and what has it got to do with what’s for dinner tonight, mystery remains the context everything here unfolds in.

That mystery is coming closer as the false falls away. We can feel it. More mysterious experiences that we can’t explain with our current understanding will happen. The proverbial veil is thinning.

Nature is coming closer - it was unaffected by this negative presence - but really it’s just that more of us is landing here. Our connectedness to the natural world feels more direct and plugged in cause less crud is in the way. (At least that’s what I suspect - I don’t know.)

I do know it’s an absolutely amazing time to be here. Thanks for being here with me.

On a separate note - but fully related - I want to give a shout out to my niece and her ‘New View’ podcast. Not just because she’s my niece and I’m proud of her, but because at 30-something she knows so much, is creating a way of being in the world fully connected to her genuine self, guided by a desire to help others and has put in the work required to speak with humble authority.

I think she’s an example of how even in the midst of so much undoing, some of our young people know exactly what they are doing and are doing it.

Here’s a recent episode. Go, Amanda! I’m so impressed by you.

I’ll end with a fitting song for these times.

BTW - my next post is half-written since it’s largely what I deleted from this one. 😂 I’m hoping the bardo-lite space I’ve been in is about over. 🤞

And gratitude - especially to my paid subscribers - for your patience with the recent slower pace.

Thanks to all of you for reading! Your support is so appreciated. I look forward to any and all comments. ❤️

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